Our Summer, Thus Far

It seems like during this week of the summer, I always feel the need to finally blog a little summer recap. Part of this is because I think this is the time of the summer where all the teachers be like "school is a comin", and this is also traditionally the time of the summer where I'm officially over Casey being gone all the time.

Exhibit A (2012)
Exhibit B (2013)

It is hilarious to me that the dates on those posts are July 20, July 21, and today is July 25 and I'm feeling the urge to post.

Anyways, here is what we have been up to!

We have had a much more low-key summer. If you recall from last year, we were gone all.summer.long, so this summer I wanted it to be pretty much the exact opposite of that, and it has been, at least for me and the girls!

June 8-14: Casey went to youth camp in Glorieta. I stayed home with all 3 girls. By myself. While some might say this was crazy of me to attempt...oh what am I kidding, it was crazy! But, that was one of our best weeks of summer. I had a daily schedule of activities for us, and even though it was crazy, it was nice to spend quality time with my babies, after being away from them during the school year. :)

June 16-20: This week was VBS week. Just like last year, the girls had a total blast! We most definitely had the whole late night thing again (including Casey staying out to almost midnight every day afterwards with the youthies), and got waaaaaayyyy off schedule, but each year they get older and handle it better. Plus, Hartlee is still so young, that she was able to fall asleep and nap during VBS, and then was able to go to bed when we got home as well. It was a great week for all! (I also had 3 days of teacher workshops this week, which are always very helpful, but also waaaaaayyyy too close to school getting out!)

June 9-19: Swimming Lessons! This was Kailey's second year of lessons, and Makenna's first. Both girls did fine..We need to work on Kailey putting her face in the water! That girl just wants to hold her nose and swim at the same time!



June 28-July 2: Kailey and Makenna went to spend some time with Gran and Papa. They had a great time picking blueberries, making jelly, and all sorts of fun things. Casey, Hartlee, and I enjoyed going out on some quiet dates while they were gone.

July 2-5: Yogi Bear! We took our annual trip with Casey's family to the Yogi Bear Jellystone Park in Burleson, TX. We had a great week playing at the water park, making some yogi crafts, meeting some yogi bear characters, and spending time with family. This was our one "vacay" of the summer, and it was a great length both in the time we stayed there, and how far it was from our house! (1 1/2 hours).



July 6-10: Casey left for a Mission Trip at Mission Arlington, and we went to spend a few days in Kingwood with my mom. (My dad was out of town, and Emily was working and had her own mission stuff after work each night). It was a great time just swimming, and seeing a few friends here and there (including my former youth minister's wife, and her daughter, and grandson).



July 21-25: That brings us to this week. This week Casey had Uncivil War, which is a competition between 4 area churches, where they play fun games. Sooo he has been out til anywhere from 10:30-12:00 each night (hence the mommy is tired of daddy being gone feelings I am having). The girls have enjoyed going to watch each night. It is always fun!

We have a few weeks of summer left, and Casey only has one more "trip", which is to Six Flags on Monday. We are thinking of letting Kailey go with him for the first time! Eek! She is getting too old! The girls are also going to spend a few days with my parents, in August, for "Grammy camp".

We have had other random bits of fun too, like going to the library, playing at the splash pad, skate night with church, and our all time fave: dressing up like cows for free Chick-Fil-A!



Besides our trips and such, our sweet Hartlee has really been growing this summer as well! She turned 6 months old this past Monday, and cut 1 tooth on Wednesday, and 1 tooth on Thursday! Plus she started solids this week (I am making my own baby food this time! So fun, and cheap!)and is devouring them, like a champ! Now, if we can just get her to sleep consistently through the night we will be on a roll!

Life with Kailey Rose

When I began this blog, 6 years ago, it was titled (and still is on the link) "Life with Kailey Rose". Oh how I love her so, but let me tell you, Life with Kailey Rose, as been far from "Rosy" this week.

Home girl is struggling.

As am I.

I think so many times I (without necessarily meaning to) act like I have it all together. At least in the social media world. People who see me in public can probably tell by my disheveled appearance, that this stay at home mom with 3 kids business, is kicking me in the booty! At the core of my distress this week, is my strong-willed Kailey Rose.

I honestly really feel like I don't really know what to do with her. (Did I say that out loud? Like..where other people can see it??)

She has gotten quite the sassy mouth on her. We have had more than one fit this week, where she has spewed some of the most hateful, horrible things at me. I have tried many consequences with her, and nothing seems to make one bit of difference. I have had such a bad time this week with her, on top of Hartlee's constant fussiness (teething), on top of Makenna's 4 year old typical testing-the-waters-disobedience, on top of: it's the end of the summer and we haven't had our daddy home much to help us. All of these things have caused me to doubt my effectiveness as a mommy. It has been quite disheartening.

Oh the devil has had quite the fun with me this week in my thought life. I would say the low points were:

"Maybe the reason we can't afford for me to be a stay at home mom full time, is because I am really awful at it"

"Maybe the reason we lost Brittyn, is because God knew I couldn't handle 3 children, and He finally just caved and gave us Hartlee because he could see how much I wanted her"

I decided to blog about this for a couple of reasons. One, is probably in the hopes that I am not the only one who feels like a horrible mother during phases such as these, and maybe my willingness to admit these struggles will help you! Another is probably in the hopes that someone can help me, or at the very least pray for me.

And for Kailey. Home girl needs some Jesus up in her heart. :)

It is so hard to be vulnerable, and write this post. But, sometimes I just need for people to see how I really feel, instead of my social media, filtered pictures that make it seem like everything is 100% perfect, 100% of the time.

Ch Ch Ch Changes!

I am not good with change.

There are SO many changes happening at my school and in my school district for the upcoming school year. It has me all worried and anxious and sad and you name it. My principal is leaving, and several of my "teacher friends", and 2 instructional coaches, and the list goes on. The last time I felt this insecure about my job is 3 years ago when I was forced to move to a new campus. I was terrified. I didn't want to leave my "teacher friends" from my old campus, and I was just not sure about my new principal, and I just didn't know what to do.

But then...

God really showed me how much more He knows about my needs than I think I know! I have NEVER worked at a better campus, under a better principal, in my career. It really has been like a family. I attribute that feeling mainly to my principal (who is leaving) but honestly I think a big reason why it feels like family, is because we have a rough group of students. They put us through.the.ringer on a daily basis. (Well not all of them...but a portion of them that make us feel like it is all of them!) Withou the support of each other, we wouldn't be able to face our jobs some days!

So, I think that is why I am having such trouble with the changes. I felt so secure with these people that I worked with, and now a bunch of them are being ripped away from me. So now, I will have to get used to new administrators, and find new "teacher friends" all while dealing with a new group of students. It is just hard.

But,

If there is one thing I know, it is that God is Sovereign. He knows what is best for me. He knew it was best for me to change campuses 3 years ago, and He knows I am supposed to be there amidst all of these changes. Just like I could never have imagined loving a school more than I love my school....He knows these changes are what I need.

I just have to trust Him.